fuck

Man I freaken hate my sister and my brother they get so mad for the stupidest things and they never fucken do shit

Irritation

Baby sitting and not getting paid gets me so made I hate the fact these dam kids don't listen to anybody they get me so mad

Feelings toward my dad

I feel bad that he could be sent away but even though I have never really been with him again ever since my quincenera I still feel like deep down he does love me or atleast I hope he does.....I know that if he would tell me straight up one day that he dosent want to know about me I really think I would die of sadness

How today was like

Things today started of good but at the end I felt like if everyone just had something against me and plus I found out some things about my dad that didn't make me feel so good things have just been on edge parley! I think I just need time alone some day's!

today

i just got a call from someone with a message from him. he wants me to go vistit hime witch i will he is not alone in this he has always protected me so i will protect him to no matter how many people are against him im on his side no matter how much lies he has told every one disserves a second chance!!!! im am alwyas going to be with you big brother...  :(

i know life has been realy hard on me lately but im just wondering when will things get easier for us all. i know deep down im going to have to move and maybe forget about everything and everyone who is here. but if it means getting my brother back i will totaly give up this sacrifice i would give up my life if i had to just so that he wouldnt have to go through this anymore. i cry everytime i think about what he is going through if hes cold or hot or hungry i dont know what to think any more :(

it isnt easy knowing that one single call can mess up everything you have in just one second. my life was destroyed with this and i know it wasnt easy